Lin Linz

I am back.

I have done just about nothing since I have been here. I have seen only two old friends.
Zach and Jocey.
Been wasting days with my new friend.

The old friends I have seen has moved on:
Jocey has a "fiance" to be busy with
And that is ok
Just include me a little, or call me back
I want to be there for you

Zach is hard to be good friends with
For obvious reasons
But it is not that bad

I do not know if I am a bad person for not making enough space in my life.
Sometimes I feel as if it does.
So I just have to say:
"I am sorry"
I plan to see you all at least once.
But I am happy

I'm lying around
And the most perfect boy just left my house

We had fun playing Tony Hawk all day
And JESUS, do my thumbs hurt
Ahh...them good old days

X-Mas taunts me
Breathing down my neck
Constantly reminding me of how close it is

On a brighter note
I had Thai last night
And watched Nightmare Before Christmas
And passed out

I love the lazy days

well, if you are lonely and you need some love....

Call me ;D

Or buy a hamster!
Me and Webster bought a hamster together!!! She's a sweetheart and gives me things to do besides homework and such.


yay

It's been a while, I have to say.

I was home last weekend, but only briefly and I didn't get to see any one but Jocey. Egh...sorry.

I'm sitting in a room with 5 posters, 2 chairs, 2 computers and zelda. O god zelda, why are you such a bitch...

I've been in contact with the past. Though we aren't together, I still feel guilt. And one split second when I'm with the "boy o' my dreams" that huge weight is lifted off my sholders and thrown away.

2 lip rings, 4 ear rings, 1 nipple and 1 eyebrow

Me and him could set off some major metal detectors

8 ear rings, 2 nipples, 2 belly button, one clit and 1 anti-eyebrow

I'm a transformer.

I destroy.

And just to let you know, if you where interested of course:

I'm the happiest I've ever been.

And it's no that ignorent, "I'll forget about you sleeping with 2 other girls for just one night" type of bull shit I had

It's all real

Ok, this weekend was lovely. Though we didn't to the protest in DC (webster had strep) we had a beautiful time just laying out and around together. Then we went to the beach and attempted to have sex, but it was "cold". Hahah, but yea, it was sandy too. He's the type of guy I've been waiting for all my life...I feel like I've known him for so long, but it's been maybe 2 weeks or so. I've never been the romantic type, but when I look at him, I come up with all these mushy mushy mush things to say, and the weird thing about it is that I mean every word. Aww ::sigh::

I honestly could be the happest person in the world right now. I just had the best weekend in the world. This guy is like the guy of my dreams. I'm so happy....

I got my mipples pierced! I'm so excited! I love my nipples....


No, the greatest thing about this piercing, is that I never been so aware of my nipples before, or my breast even. It was an expierence I'll never forget...

I sat down the other day, saying the words I didn't really want to say.
Saying "I miss you" and "I love you" just feels like home...

And oh how much I miss it

I miss cuddling and sleeping with someone else, sexual acts optional
The constant laughing and giggles
Predictablity is the magic word
Crying together was also nice

And oh,
How much I miss it

Uh.....I had a good weekend! Hurray!

Today will either be a wonderful day, or just a chill day. Whatever

Me and Zach are offically on "non-speaking" terms. I just came to the conclusion that it's just to hard, and if he wont admit it I sure as hell will. I just can't depend on one phone call to get me though the life. Hey, but that's just me. And it's not even just that, it's like we are still together but farther apart. And the fact he didn't think he would miss me this much, makes me feel like shit. Honestly, I can't keep on feeling this way cause I felt like shit for a very long time, and I need a break...

I'm sad about it, but maybe we should have broken up a long time ago.

I'm going down to Middle Town with some friends from school. Hopefully they'll show me a good time. I got a kiss on the cheek "good-night" last night. It made me so happy cause I don't think that ever happend to me before. Like, way back when, I just jumped into thing in order to feel like someone gives a shit about me. So the little things that should've happend like 3/4 years ago make me really giddy and happy...Just thought I'd share that.

Have a good day guys

And as for Zach...it makes me so sad that we can't have a decent conversation for even 10 minutes...I used to think he was my bestest friend, but it doesn't seem so. And whats worse, when I come home, I won't have that many friends cause they are all better friends with Zach. It's just makes me so uneasy, this feeling in my gut.

I met this girl named Lynsy...I love that girl. And I love college, cause you can get pizza delivery at mid night...aw it's so sweet

I'm adjusting well to college, I made some really chill friends. Like they are my type, and they are really nice. So yay me!

I also met a guy of interest...ooooo...the soap opera of my life continues

Everything got really sad the last few days before I left...I can't explain it, it's like nothing mattered all summer, and then, at the very last second, a series of events demanded me to attended at the open ends of life. It was killer on me...

I cried alot before I left, I left Zach back in Towson, and I swear I cried all night, for a varity of reasons, but mostly because I felt like he was trying to forget about me, which tore me up. Infact I think he's still trying to forget about me.

BY THE WAY: I left my cell at home...oops...I'll make it up to you later with sexual favors

There's been lots of relationship problems because I'm going away. We where fighting and bickering alot. So we confronted each other...I don't know if it went well or not. But I'm so sad I'm leaving....I don't know how I'm going to find friends. :) I'll miss you guys

I must say, that because of resent events, most of my journal will be friends only.

I got my hood pierced 2 days ago!!

I went with Adria and Kerry, and it was the most intense thing i ever got to experience....


If you ever even think of getting it done, go for it!!!

The piercer said I was one of his best getting it done...I didn't jump or scream or anything :)

Ok....

Just to let things out...it hurt my feelings too...

It IMBARASSED me for someone to write up "You don't deserve Lindsey"

It was UNDERSTANDABLE to me that Crow was upset about the public remark about her on her LJ

It's DISAPPOINTING to watch you guys fight on the internet

So just call each other or something! Jesus!

I would like to make a public apology that I was sorry that I've removed myself from society...

 

I've put all of me into one thing

I do everything with all of my heart in it

I can complain

Can not do it all

Just let it go

I'm off to school in 26 days

Gone

For good

Or just a few months at a time.

Whatever

 

I WON NINE INCH NAILS TICKETS!!!!!!!!!!

off of hfs...it was fucking magical!!!
I'm so excited!

Miss my weird-lookin-penis updates?? Well heres one!!!

 

 

Jesus Crist Batman!! It's something out of the Jurassic Periode!!!